The Ghost In The Mirror — Poetry

The only thing that’s gonna light my path is fire that I light behind me,
Until then the ghost of my past will constantly be reminding me,
The only way to move forward is to torch everything I see!!!
So I’ll dive into the icy waters that is my mind,
OH I SEE!!!
SO WHAT YOU SAYING IS WE GONNA BE DOING A LITTLE PSYCHO-SELF ANALYZING?
DIVING INTO OUR MIND TO FIGURE OUT WHY IT’S SO FUCKED UP…I AGREE!
THO BE CAREFUL NOW CAUSE YOU MIGHT NOT BE LIKING WHAT YOUR FINDING,
I’M GOING TO BE REMINDING YOU WHY YOU HIDE THE TRUTH,
WE BOTH KNOW THERE’S TRULY A DARKNESS INSIDE OF YOU,
I’VE DIVIDED YOU,
CONSTANTLY FIGHTING WITH YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR,
That’s not true!!!!!
COME ON MAN….
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I FOUND YOU TRYING TO COMMIT MENTAL VIOLENCE?
ALONE IN THE BATHROOM… SCREAMING IN THE MIRROR… WHEN THERE’S NO-ONE STANDING THERE BESIDE YOU?
I’M BEGINNING TO THINK THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE IS YOURSELF AND YOU FEAR IT….HAHAHA!!!
So I’m writing this down so you can understand what it’s like in the mind of a lunatic,
I’m losing it!!!
The confusion of this Bi-polar disorder is dizzying,
At this point, I’m starting to retreat back inside because your beginning to see me,
Now the voices in my head are screaming I’m just too fucked up to believe in,
Maybe it’s just a coping mechanism me with the deceiving?!?
Anxiety about everything?!?
You better believe it,
Tho right now I’m convinced if you knew the real me,
You’ll just be packing up and leaving,
The borders have been crossed,
The lines washed away and my personalities… They can be quite deceiving,
There’s multiples of us and the others would like to meet ya,
I’m Michael,
That’s Mike,
And the other…you do not wanna meet…. Nah,
Eyes on me now,
A different kinda animal,
Caged for a reason,
A disease committing treason against its own mind and for what reason???
IDK,
Every time I try to figure it out…
I end up alone…
In front of this mirror…
just screaming….
Mike Lundy
L.E.
Oh.